don't try and find your direction in this large open world one day it'll come along and swoop you off your little feet and you'll be so overcome by it you'll wonder why you had been walking the other way...
what does the wind whistling in my ears really mean to me? why does seeing someone smile give me such a satisfaction? how can i have been trying so hard to live i forgot keep living? when will i grasp hold of what i am ? which will be the day i love?
today i finished... after hours of crying, ripping up paper, more crying, walking to the park and sipping a cup of apple and pear tea it was finished... its been a weight over my head since september and now its finally complete my smile reaches from one ear to the near and joyful tears are rolling down the apples of my cheeks
isn't it strange how one accomplishment that we have had enforced upon us and have hated can bring about such happiness